I feel the need to reflect from this week because I feel like I’ve been on a long trip…even though I haven’t traveled anywhere.
In this week, I’ve begun what I hope is the process of changing habits. Starting the journey to saying goodbye to ways that have caused me to move backwards. In motherhood. In wifehood. In friendships. In my faith. In my relationship with my Savior.
I say all of this a bit reluctantly, because I am not naive enough to believe this will be easy. Or that it will be fast. Or that I will be completely successful.
I will fail and I will fall, but I trust that I will also have the courage and fortitude to pick myself up and start again. That is the way of changing habits, is it not? If we never start, we will never finish. If we don’t push through, the goal will never become a reality.
First, we have to see a need to change. A realization we have an area in our life that is not “ok” with us. That we feel warrants an overhaul. A new direction. Or death altogether.
For me this means a complete change in my day. In my routine. In my reactions. This is BIG. This is not small. This will not happen overnight, but I am determined that it. will. happen. And I don’t even know exactly what the end will look like. I just know it will be better. My soul will be rewarded. My family will be rewarded. I expect all of my relationships will be sweeter when these habits are changed. When they are fully and completely resolved.
A new day. A new way.
In my readings this week, God has pointed out to me just how faithful He is, even when we are not…and even when we are. He has shown me the lengths that His Grace has been poured out on me and on so many giants of the faith in the Bible…even when they messed up. And they messed up big at times. But they were always covered in Grace. Just like me. Just like you.
He has shown me that I don’t have to know what tomorrow will hold. I don’t have to know what He has planned. I don’t have to do or be anything other than faithful to trust. Trust His will. His way. His time.
A hard pill for me to swallow even most days. There’s a habit that needs changing. That one wasn’t even on the list.
God is showing me that He is bigger than my fear. I believe I’ll tackle that one in a post next week. Fear…oh how it drives so much in our lives.
Today, I sit in complete awe of my Mighty God. In what He has done. In what He is doing. In what He is going to do. I don’t even have to know, because I already know. It will be bigger than I can imagine. It will be better than I can imagine. He will be glorified and that’s all that truly matters. That’s the only result I want in any habit I now form. And any habit that doesn’t lead to his Glory, I ask Him to delete from my life.
Maybe you have some habits that need changing, too? You can do this. I can do this.
I just read this week, “all things are possible with God.”
The Message Bible says it this way, “Jesus was blunt: “No chance at all if you think you can pull it off by yourself. Every chance in the world if you let God do it.””
Jesus cut right to the point, as He always did and always does in my own life.
NO CHANCE alone. EVERY CHANCE with God.
There are some words to live by. To change by. Habit changing words. Life giving words. Oh…to get my life back. Or to just get it in the first place. Here’s to changing habits. For His Glory.