I know how I’m supposed to act. How I’m supposed to feel. How I’m supposed to “be” as a mother and a wife. It’s all laid out very clearly and succinctly in God’s word. And the more I read, I realize how very far I miss the mark. I read these words and they stir my heart this week before Mother’s Day…
“Her children will rise up and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her.”
I’m fairly certain my son was not rising up and calling me blessed this morning as I forced him to brush his teeth,
leading to him spitting it out all over his shirt, leading to a change and almost being late for school,
leading to me pulling over on the side of the road to apologize,
leading to him covering his head with his backpack all the way to his classroom and not telling me goodbye (for the first time in his three years of school drop off),
leading to me crying heading back to car,
leading to this…another mother friend holding me crying in the parking lot and praying over me.
Yes, that’s a lot more like who I am. What I’ve become. Who I am somedays…how I feel a lot of days.
Not very blessed, huh? But oh, so very real.
And I know there’s grace for that. For those moments. For these hard days of mothering that can be oh. so. glorious…and yet oh. so. hard. Lisa-Jo Baker got that exactly right.
And in the grace that we have to often pour out on our children and families, maybe it’s time we turned around and gave some back to ourselves.
Would that be so wrong? To actually grace ourselves for a change?
To stop beating ourselves up for being so perfectly imperfect?
When my friend was letting me snotty-nose-ugly-cry on her shoulder in the school parking lot, she was whispering these words into my ear…”Lord, let your child give herself grace today…”
And I believe He did. And He does. And He will.
Through His grace, we can grace ourselves.
Of course I want my children and my husband to have a mother and a wife they consider a blessing. And I pray when it’s all said and done, they will be able to see that I was…somedays. But it’s not even plausible to think that I will be on most.
I do know that the closer I get to Jesus, the more my sin and faults are blindly obvious. And the harder Satan fights to draw them out.
I’m determined to stay the course. To draw near to Jesus so He will draw near to me. That’s what He promises.
He also promises that if we submit to Him and resist satan that satan will flee… Yes, I cling to that promise often. Very often.
This week as we think about the mothers we had or have and the mothers we are or want to be or wish we could be…remember this. You matter. Whether you have your own children or are like a mother to someone else’s. You matter. We all matter.
And we are not going to be perfect, because we don’t have to be.
I’m here to say it’s possible to be a blessing and not be perfect. If that wasn’t the case, who did Jesus come to save?
It’s completely possible to be an imperfect blessing giver.
There’s a lot of comfort in someone coming alongside you and saying they’ve been where you are and it’s ok to not be perfect. It’s ok to not be a blessing everyday. There’s grace for that.
And I’d like to think I can be a blessing to someone else, even these littles and this man in my own home, through my imperfect offerings and with a measure of self-given grace.
Take your own measure of grace today if you need it. You won’t be alone. And then go and bless someone with it…and find yourself blessed more than them.
In His Grace,
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