In so many ways, on so many days…I long…I strive to be perfect.
The perfect mother. The perfect wife. The perfect friend. The perfect Christian.
Even when I know in my head and even in my heart that it is not attainable. I still want to be.
In so many ways, on so many days…I fail. Miserably.
Sometimes I feel like I live in a completely false world. Like we all live in a completely false world.
We share only what we want others to “like” on Facebook.
We tweet only the wittiest comments and quotable quotes.
We instagram the photos we know will be “hearted”.
I am human. I want to be liked. I want to be accepted. I want to BE what I’m supposed to BE.
So…on days like today, when I completely mess up at this gift of motherhood and yell at my kids for just being kids…it hurts.
And on days like today, when I lose my temper with my husband and can’t let the “small stuff” go…it hurts.
You see, the problem with living in a falsely perfect world, is that we aren’t perfect. And when our expectations are set on being perfect, eventually we fail and we fall. And in falling, we become susceptible to all kinds of temptations.
Satan has us right where he wants us. Living a lie. Then when the lie melts before our eyes, we are made vulnerable. Vulnerable to anything but good. Satan is our worst enemy. Not our rebellious two-year old. Not our uncooperative husbands. Not our crazy family. Satan alone. He is like a thief…that comes to steal. kill. and destroy. He hates me. He hates you. He hates our marriages and our families. He especially hates our children.
John 10:10 (ESV)
10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy…
So where is my hope? If this is my life and the world I live in, how can I ever be free? In my life, it looks like this…
I have to forgive myself. I have to seek forgiveness from those I’ve wronged. And in asking and receiving forgiveness, there is freedom. I’m getting very good at asking forgiveness from my husband and my kids. I hope I only get better.
And then the rest of the story…
John 10:10 (ESV)
10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.
Instead of living daily in defeat from being imperfect, why not try living life IN the only ONE who was and is Perfect, and claiming our perfect imperfection. A life completely given to Jesus is the only life with an ounce of hope of making it through this perfectly imperfect world and bodies we inhabit.
Satan makes a lot of promises. He only carries through on what benefits his goals to steal, kill and destroy. God also makes a lot of promises to us in His Word. God’s promises are always fulfilled. Always true. Always just right. And He promises that IN JESUS we can have life and have it abundant. Not perfect. But he also says that in our weakness, He is made strong. Well folks, I give God plenty of opportunities to show his strength. And He does. And He will. He said so. And He’s proven it over and over again.
So, will I ever be perfect? No. Will I fail daily? Yes. But the more I can seek refuge in Jesus and forgiveness when it’s needed, the more complete my life will become. There will I find rest. There will I find peace. There will I find joy. And all in perfect imperfection.
Take heart friends. It’s perfectly ok. 😉